Sunday, September 24, 2006

so far i have crossed in life

from the day i was born.
i have remembered alot of things.
from failure to success, from childhood to maturity, from the well to the outside world.

i remember the 1st light 1 saw when i came out.
i remember the blood stains all around me.
i remember having all eyes on me.

i remember the 1st time i went for injection.
i remember the acute pains focused on my arm.

i remember the 1st time i reach my new home.
i remember the retro-style.
i remember the old tv, the radio
i remember the flora decorated all around me.

i remember all my relatives came to congratulate me.
i remember.

i remember the 1st time i learn to walk.
i remember my parent's surprised looks.
i remember the awkward style of my walking.

i remember i cant even talk till the age to 4.
i remember crying all alone when i needed the fan.
i remember my aunt patting me to sleep instead of my sis.
i remember the worried faces on my parents when i cant even pronounce a word.

i remember eating my 1st piece of shit.
i remember drinking my 1st gulp of urine.
i remember the taste.

i remember the tv was always spoilt by me.
i remember the angry look on my parents' faces.
i remember the long strip they use to stun me.

i remember wearing my father's police uniform.
i remember ransacking the store room just to play with his police equip.
i remember all the fun inside that 2 metre sq. of space.

i remember the 1st time entering nursery.
i remember the solitude in me.
i remember the loss in self-esteem in me cos they keep bullying me.

i remember growing bolder.
i remember destroying things in nursery.
i remember the countless times the teacher scolded me.

i remember my growth.
i remember my height in k2.
i remember the face of the girl i liked then.

i remembered i keep insulting others.
i remembered my mother scolded me for that.
i remembered the 1st time i bully others.

i remembered that until k2 i havnt even used toothpaste.
i remembered i never use soap for shower
i remembered i took only 3 mins for every shower.

i remembered having to go to the stadiun every day with sis and dad.
i remembered running a long 1.6km every time.
i remembered the non-tired look on my face.

i remembered i always have to run 1 more round than my sis.
i remembered lapping my sis by 1 round.
i remembered i always finish earlier than her.

i remembered the sand at the stadium.
i remembered the monkey bars, the chin up bars..
i remembered the 1st time doing chin up when i was 6.

i remembered waking up at 6am sharp.
i remembered switing on the com the moment the door was closed.
i remembered all the frustrations i suffered during the game.

i remembered entering si ling primary school.
i remembered i was crying all the time.
i remembered i dare not even move my mouth.

i remembered i always went to my cousin's house.
i remembered ransacking his lego box.
i remembered stepping on the countless pieces of lego pieces.

i remembered all the cuts on my fingers.
i remember all the tooth marks ont he lego pieces.
i remember the nice structures i have made from lego.

i remember the kind of grades i got in school.
i remember all my rewards and punishments.
i remember my hell fate when i cheated my father's money to buy erasers.

i remembered walking home with my sis and father everyday.
i remember the hilly routes.
i remember the coffeeshop where we always stoped to watch people play chess.

i remembered every night we have to pia our homework.
i remember dosing off halfway.
i remember bluffing my father i want to sleep when i just don't wan to study.

i remember my diaries.
i remember my 'results and findings'.
i remember my 'insights and reflections'.

i remember making my first true friend in school.
i remember his etiquette then.
i remembered his attitude in class.

i remembered i learnt chinese chess with dad.
i remembered every day 7.30pm i played with him.
i remembered i kept losing to him.
i remembered throwing all the chess pieces all over.

i remembered my achievements so far.
i remembered my fun and attitude so far.
i remembered having not to study and get good grades.

i remembered learning my 1st passion in my life - basketball.
i remembered my 1st throw at the basket.
i remembered my 'vow' to myself - to keep basketball going in me.

i remembered going down to the bball court every day.
i remembered being zhammed at the head countless times.
i remembered my father playing with me.
i remembered playing monkey with all the basketball pros down there.

i remembered always chionging home after bball at 6 to watch wheel of fortune.
i remembered laughing at those people who can't even solve such a simple word.
i remembered cheering on for those 'noobs' inside the tv programme.

i remembered primary 3 went malaysia with dad almost every day.
i remembered the shell gas station.
i remembered all the veg, meat we bought from the mkt there.

i remembered every semester we went to grandma house.
i remember exploring the whole of penang there.
i remember the auntie selling my favourite guop tiao tang at the ultra big coffeeshop.

i remembered going to cck library for experiment books everyday.
i remembered searching high and low for my lightbulbs, wires, etc.
i remembered having a table all to myself, on top are all my batteries, aluminium foils, etc...

i rememvered getting scolded by my tchr every day in school.
i remembered titanic.
i remembered sitting with kangyu playing every moment in class.
i remember teck chye always playing with me.

i remembered primary 3 my chinese tuition tchr is very good to me.
i remembered learning higher chinese there.
i remembered playing chess with her everytime after the tuition.

i remembered rushing home after tuition for my favourite tv show.
i remembered listening to the loud radio while having lunch.
i remembered going out to school myself for the 1st time.

i remembered losing to kangyu every time.
i remembered losing to lunkuang every time cos he cheated.
i remembered despite all that i got the champion in the chess competition.

i remember in primary 4 i got into an undesired class.
i remember having to know all those beng kias.
i remember learning the word 'fuck' then.

i remembered liking this girl sitting in the 2nd row, 3rd column from the right.
i remembered not even talking to her for once.
i remembered staring at her from a distance, from my last row 2nd column.

i remembered having loads of fun with my gang.
i remembered going soccer all the time with them.
i remembered getting the blue black in my eye when zhammed my eye onto somebody's forehead.

i remembered my tution is a success.
i remembered chionging for endless tuitions.
i remembered my parents keep scolding me for not studying.

i remembered going for bball str8 after tuition at 5.
i remembered doing all those stretching exercises and then going for a 2km rum.
i remembered despite being tired after the run i still carry on bballing.

i remembered my father got me a new bball.
i remembered showing off to those at the bball court downstairs.

i remembered going for swimming every now and then.
i remembered suffering alot trying to gasp for breath.
i remembered being one of the last to finish those laps.

i remembered improving my bball skill by tons in primary 5.
i remember being one of the better students in class
i remember getting scolded by mrs kadir every time.

i remembered i was quite a joker in the pri 5 and pri 6 class.
i remembered everyone was very good to each other.
i remembered everyone ostracising yun kiat then.

i remembered performing very badly in tuition class.
i remembered getting 'abused' by mum behind the closed door.
i remembered not talking to the tuition teacher for like 2 lessons.

i remembered doing all my tuition hws in the bath.
i remembered completing the whole psle paper in 30 mins.
i remembered all the ticks and crosses tuition tchr scribbled on my papers.

i remembered going to tanah merah to pray every saturday.
i remember playing and mugging there.
i remembered the noise level me and sis created there.

i remembered on most saturdays me dad and sis went cycling to anywhere.
i remembered those 3 bikes that sent us everywhere.
i remembered doing all sorts of experiments on my bike.

i remembered the 1st time i showed my true bball talent to my friends there.
i remembered having the awesome comments from them.
i remembered being recognised as a 'pro' there.

i remembered not doing any homework in school.
i remembered being chased out by mrs kadir every time.
i remembered i always last minute complete my papers just before the lesson.

i remembered during primary 5 i started to leasrn singlish.
i remembered my chinese standard dropped to shit.
i remembered being laughed by my parents at my chinese standard.

i remembered my drastic improvement in english.
i remembered the vice versa for my chinese.
i remembered the weird look on mrs kadir abt my grades.

i remembered i din study much for psle.
i remembered slacking throughout psle exams.
i remembered playing in the midst of the psle.

i remembered playing all sorts of games after psle.
i remembered the memories we, 6I have together.
i remembered the times we shocked mrs kadir every teacher's day.

i remember the day of psle results.
i remember the whole class's reaction towards my score.
i remember the disbelief look in my face as well as mrs kadir's.

i remembered wee choon calling me for the 1st time.
i remembered he scored as well as me.
i remembered he is a very intel student then.

i remembered entering cat high.
i remembered the woodlands ring pri shirt, thinking tt we are 'zi ji ren'.
i remembered the tall freak sitting right in front of me during the briefing then.

i remembered the 1st day in cat high.
i remembered i always sat at the edge with wee choon.
i remembered pairing with him in every activity.

i remembered the 1st day tt tan bitch.
i remembered she kept shooting me for my lack of discipline.
i remembered the innocent me dare not talk back.

i remembered sec 1-7's achievements.
i remembered being clinched champion for quite a number of events.
i remember the teamwork we have.

i remembered wee choon being one of the better students in class.
i remembered my grades are like shit.
i remembered sijie and duak are with me and wee choon all the time.

i remembered chionging for pokemon cards. real ones.
i remembered going to the world of jj for cards.
i remembered being joyous over them.

i remembered joining np cos my father was once a policeman.
i remembered wee choon keep leeching me.
i remembered we went through firece training just at the 1st year.

i remembered wee choon suffering a bone fracture during np camp.
i remember the awkward look on him.
i remember my worry about him when i found him missing from the camp.

i remembered me, duak and sijie are good at these.
i remembered wilson tan, shi kai and kr are all using those fake cards.
i remembered selling all my rare cards to the others.

i remembered my house going for a very fierce renovation.
i remembered cooping myself up in the master bedroom whole day.
i remembered all the dust and dirt all over the house.

i remembered we are like living in a 1 room flat.
i remembered all the stuff cramped into 1 room.
i remembered we even had to wear sports shoes to the living room.

i remembered it takes a very long period of time for the reno to be done.
i remember all the inconvenience my family suffered.
i remember the BOREDOM i had to go through.

i remember the joy after 80% completion.
i remember we finally get to use the new bathroom.
i remember we for the 1st time sitting in the new living room to watch the tv show.

i remember going for sec 2 we are at the former primary school campus.
i remember the size of the parade square.
i remember the happenings we went through.

i remember sec 2 was the best time of my sec school life.
i remember everyone is starting to enjoy the 2-7 company.
i remember that is the 1st time i really get to know wilson tan.

i remembered always going to bryan's house for projects.
i remembered my bag was always full of pokemon cards.
i remembered what we did was only play com and pokemon and not project.

i remember the 1st time i accompanied wilson home.
i remembered his friendly attitude towards me.
i remembered sacrificing for him for the 1st time.

i remember being very very close to him.
i remember everyone saying i and him are a 'couple'.
i remembered the times we had together.

i remembered the 2-7 'bball trg' virtually started by me, bok and duak.
i remembered the rest joined in much later, 1 by one.
i remembered we really have a good time during bball; class bonding after all.

i remembered the sec 2 camp.
i remembered having high fever for like dunno how many weeks.
i remembered i held on all the way throughout the camp and then forced by tan bitch to go home.

i remembered being a slack at np.
i remembered geting scolded by ms lim for ponning np.
i remembered being hcased after by tan bitch for discipline matters.

i remembered being a worse student than ever.
i remember being one of the bottom in class.
i remember the shock on the class's faces when i scored the highest for the australian maths competition.

i remember going for the 2-7 chalet.
i remembered the fun we went through.
i remembered showing off my daytona driving skills to them.

i remembered cos of the chalet i ponned the np promo test.
i remembered getting scolded by ms lim AGAIN.
i remembered losing this chance to promote 1 rank.

i remember black knights.
i remember the vigourous training.
i remember the sweet and pain we went through.

i remember entering a very very 'stranger' class in sec 3.
i remember i was thinking how i wished i can be with wilson.
i remember being a very antisocial person.

i remember police day parade.
i remember every saturday we had to go drill for some 4 hours under the hot sun.
i remember we feel very relieved on the air-con bus after the training.

i remember sec 3 camp.
i remember not bathing for all 3 days.
i remember rayson threw the bottle into the pure greenery, pollution!

i remember all the flies and horse dung.
i remember the kayaks, abseiling and more.
i remember having to go home 1 day before break camp cos np people have pdp.

i remember the time cadets kena food poisoning after having food provided by PA.
i remember all the vomits spilt on the bus.
i remembered igg being one of them.

i remember the glory 1k+ of us shared after the real parade.
i remember being goddamn relieved while in the air con room.
i remembered the relief of not having to go for 4 hrs of drill anymore.

i remembered the 1st time my batch is NCO.
i remembered the privileges we have got.
i remembered the respect we have gained from the juniors.

i remembered the time i signed up for lifesaving course.
i remembered the trial we went through.
i remembered the day we started this course.

i remembered the vigour once again.
i remembered the 50 kg me having to drag a 70+ kg kes out of the pool.
i remembered even breaking my back just to do that.

i remembered having to tow people 50m in 1 minute.
i remembered having to swim in clothes in the cold water.
i remembered having to take all off in 10 seconds.
i remembered having to swim in the cold weather.
i remembered shivering throughout the course.

i remembered the day we took the 1st test.
i remembered the angry look on the instructors.
i remembered the sadness in our faces when some of us failed.

i remembered the time we went out for dinner together.
i remembered the times we took the photos.
i remembered the time ants came feeding on my isotonic drink.

i remembered the scenarios the instructors created for us.
i remembered showing off my acting skills in water.
i remember having to use up all my strength to save 4, 5 people at once.

i remember the day we all passed the test.
i remember the joy we all had.

i remember cos of lifesaving i almost kena retained.
i remember that time lucky some of my subjects are of standard.
i remembered depending on my R5 to pass instead of my L1 cos my only L1 failed.

i remembered the agony wee choon went through.
i remembered him calling me to say he got retained.
i remembered the tone he passed this message to me.

i remembered the 2nd time 2-7 chalet.
i remembered the pathetic size of the chalet, the outings, the squeeziness.
i remembered we cycled from east coast for sunrise, to changi airport and to changi village for breakfast.

i remembered np chalet as well.
i remembered is the same chalet as we held our 2-7 chalet.
i remembered going there for only 2 days 1 night.

i remembered sec 4 i was getting along better with my class.
i remembered having pohan to sit with me.
i remembered the class's difference in activeness btwn last year and this year.

i remembered i got the most number of badges at muster parade.
i remembered nelson or jason lee (i forgot liao) saying until breathless.
i remembered i was the phototaker then; the fun of running around.

i remembered every time is me, sijie, duak, wil, bok and kr going home together.
i remembered 1 person alighting at each stop, ahving me to say goodbye to each person at each stop.
i remembered all the fun inside the mrt.

i remembered i trained for pull up every day.
i remembered piaing for the napfa test.
i remember breaking my personal record of 29 points in the napfa test, shocking everyone.

i remembered the time we pop.
i remembered the high high morale we had then.
i remembered we did our FINAL step down precision drill together so nicely that all bystanders onlookers audiences cheered.

i remembered the prelims.
i remembered i started my maple life then.
i remembered the whole lot of us piaing maple in the midst of the prelims.

i remember the tension of the o's.
i remember nobody cares, at least for my clique.
i remembered everyday i gained 1 level for ahteolaugau.

i remembered pestering my mum for broadband.
i remembered quarreling with my dad over it.
i remembered crying over the loss for a recod of 5 hours.

i remembered the day i got it.
i remembered the time i pia until siao.
i remembered duak and wil and kr came to my house just to maple.

i remembered the time i got into the NP soccer team.
i remembered people applauded at my superb goalkeeping skill.
i remembered the skills they taught me. credit goes to u all =D

i remembered my soccer and bball career in cat high.
i remembered being recognised as 1 of the bball pros in the cat high realm.
i remembered all the stunts i made to shock the whole school.

i remembered going home not to study but play.
i remembered the times me rayston rayson kenny bridging during breaks.
i remembered the number of decks of cards koped by mrs pang. (i think is 4)

i remembered the o's had come within a 'split second'.
i remembered i did everything with difficulty.
i remembered all my answers are correct but wrong.

i remembered the joy, the freedom right after 5.45pm, 18 november.
i remembered we chiong out of the house in glee.
i remembered the day another verse of our life has past successfully.

i remembered after that was mapling all the way.
i remembered we had completely nothing to do.
i remembered we sometimes got out together to celebrate our victory over the o's.

i remembered we got together again for prelims posting.
i remembered i got into the jc i dunwan to go.
i remembered that is the time i part with my best friends.

i remember the 1st survey i have done.
i remember every survey costs $4.
i remember getting my 1st pay.

i remembered 2-7 chalet again!
i remembered this time is much more fun than the previous 2.
i remembered watching nc16, m18, the popular movies throughout the night.

i remembered me, bryan, rong sheng and kr have a really 'good time' on bed.
i remember we had 'vigorous' activities going on there.
i remember hugging kr for the 1st time;
i remember the soft cosy feeling.
i remember the 1st time i "spawn"ed in my life was then.

i remember the week we went to malaysia again to visit grandmother-in-law.
i remember she was under stroke and unable to move. sad.
i remember we all went to hospital every day to send regards to her.

i remember the holiday is cheerful, yet uninteresting.
i remember the fun we had. as primary school. as secondary school.
i remember spending half my hols to dump books i learnt over 4 years.
i remember the 1st drawing i have made in my sec 1 book as i kept that book.

i remember.
i remember these 16 years have been fruitful to me.
i remember my changes i have done to myself. and by others.
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16 years have passed. almost 17.
my life is really happening when i was thinking otherwise.
the long list above is just part; a lot of details are not jotted down yet.
i cant possibly get down to all.
yup.
just to let you realise that YOUR life is AT LEAST as happening as mine.

I'mma Touch the Sky!
3:17 PM